I want to start by letting you know that I love you so much in all the parts of my heart. I love watching your little personality develop and seeing you grow. Everyday I feel so so so happy to be your mommy and that I get to be the person who kisses your ouch’s, reads your truck book, sings you the Temple song at bedtime, and gets all your snuggles throughout the day.
I know you can tell things are changing. There are things popping up around the house that aren’t for you (and you don’t like that). We’ve been talking a lot about how you’re going to be a big brother and even though you promise you’ll share your toys and love to kiss and hug my belly, I don’t think you grasp what’s happening. I don’t know if I even do entirely. Our lives are going to be so different soon and frankly, Mommy is a little scared.
It makes me sad that you won’t be my littlest baby any more. I know that you’ll always be my baby, but compared to your little brother you’ll be so big! I’m going to miss all of the one on one time that we have now. I’m worried that you will think I love you less because I can’t give you my undivided attention. And I’m a little scared to know that I’ll wake up one morning and you’ll be all grown up and won’t need me the way you do now.
I’m also so excited for this new chapter in our lives. I know you’ll have so much fun with your little brother. You are such a sweet little boy and I know that you’ll be such a good helper. We’ll have to adjust and it might take some time, but I know that just like how you were supposed to be mine, he was supposed to be ours.
You’re going to teach him things I can’t. You’ll be his first playmate and someone he can look up to. You’ll also probably fight and might beat each other up a few times. But in the end you’ll have each other’s backs.
So Easton, just know that even though at first this is going to be an adjustment, I promise it will all be worth it. And I’m always going to love you just as much as I do right now- even when you stop snuggling with me, even when you’re not-so-nice teenager, even when you’re all grown up and have your own babies.
I love you forever bub,